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| had an amazing day today! had my HW done, talked with my counsler, setup an appt to talk w/ Ms. Kerr about my college apps, gotta B on my PreCal test that i thought i failed, had my delicious chocolate milk today, and basically had a blast joking around in physics and psych (such hilarious classes)!
things are going much better now that the emtiness is filled again...im am complete and back to my old self again!
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| hey, nothing in life is perfect...things take time, need work, and might not always workout!! im not saying im over it, im not saying ive moved on...but i cant change the inevitable, i cat resist it...just gotta flow with it!!! Yay baby ive got the flow!!!
aiight today was a fucking stressfull day, i had a migrain, a stomach ache, and soo much HW that i have to get through..once this week passes, and i get all my work done, my college apps, and start on my essays...i'll soo much happier!
shout out to my girl Dany..things will be okay...i kno what youre going through, it sucks now, but itll get better soon!!
Shout out to my baby...i hope your hand is okay, and your wall...i love you! its for the best for both of us!!! MWha i will always remember you inna good light...i love you!
aight im out..gots to get the HW done (two papers, worksheets, bookwork, and tests to study for! grrs)....1 | | |
| i despise the future..you cant predict it, you can't plan for it, shit happens, and that shit sucks!!! im trying to work in the present, to do whats asked of me, to do whats right, to rectify the situation, and to heal my wounds...i have no words to explaine myself, i fucked up, i realize, and thats what i say ALL THE TIME! im tired of screwing up, im tired of dissapointing the people i love, im tired of making the wrong decisions, but most of all im tired of bitching about it...i need to change the way ive done things...always wanted to get my way, always got around the rules to get what i want...well fuck it hunny, the world doesn't revolve around you, it revolves around rules...ive learned that no matter how badly i messed up, ive got got to own up to it, sooner rather than later...ive got to take it all on!
the stress of senior year is definately getting to me...lunch w/ Dany, and it was good to talk things out and out things into perspective...i know what MY plan is, but i dont know about him yet...its all up in the air...but i have faith..im holding onto all sense of hope there is!!!
i love you baby...you have made me a better person, you have motivated me to try harder, to strive for more in life, to learn about myself, and to love!!! i never truely knew anyone like you...youre perfect for me! the pain i feel and the pain i caused is unbearable, but i hope that both of us can get through this and stay strong, please dont let this bring us down!! youve worked so hard to be where you are today, and you will only go farther!! youre amazing and the most wonderful boyfriend i could ever have! i love you so much baby...you mean the world to me, no matter how far away i am from you, i will always trust that you are right for me and that you love and care for me always!!!
forever and always BKH!!! | | |
| im tired of the pain, im tired of the hurt, im tired of making wrong choices, im tired of all the work! i never once thought of anyone else, i never once tried to make it right, i deserve the murder of my soul, i deserve the ending of my life!
life throws you a fast ball, a curve ball, and change ups all along the way....all i can say is that ill miss you more than ever, ive put you through hell, but thats all ive been going through this past week too!! my family hates me, my boyfriend and i are done, ive gotta live my life somehow, but for now, idk how thatll happen! ive gotta hold on to teh fact that i know i still love and care for him, more than he'll ever know...and the best thing i can ever do for him is just to let him go!!!
aiight im done with this...i can't talk about this without crying...i love you baby, i never once put you in a bad light, i hope the furture is still near, but for now stay strong and live yourlife right...keep striving and going after your dreams, you deserve nothing less than perfection, and i only want that for you!!
goodbye baby elephant shoe always!!! | | |
| September 1st: our one month! you couldn't be any more perfect for me. i can't imagin my life without you. you've completed my life, put back together my heart, and rebuilt my faith! I love you baby, with every fiber of my being. Looking past their disapproval, you've managed to treat me with such care and love, that all the troubles seem to melt away when i see your face, hear your voice, or think about your touch! nothing has made me whole as your presance and your inspiration has. You hold me together, you make me better, you make me complete!! I love you baby, with every fiber of my being!!!
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